Becoming a mother changes someone so much. I knew this happened, but I didn't know that it happened to the extent of what has happened to me. I always wanted children, I knew it would happen one day but I was also the type that didn't like other peoples children. I hated when they got in my way at the store, everything you can imagine I hated. All my friends could never imagine me with kids. One of my best friends once told me he wouldn't trust me with his pet rock! Lovely. Well, this whole parenting thing has changed me, and it has changed me for the better. It really has. I am considerate of all children now. If I am in my car and see a mom and kid trying to cross the street I always make it a point to let them go, I go out of my way to hold doors for moms and strollers, and I even say hi to other little kids when they look up at my in the stores. Believe me, this would of never happened 10 years ago...but at least I admit it.
That brings me to my blog today that I NEED to write. I heard about Emmett Trapp wandering out of his house during nap time at his families house my heart went out to his family. I was drawn into this story. I don't know why it touched me so much. I don't know if was his little picture they kept showing on TV, or if its because he was the same age as Xavier. It doesn't matter, his story touched me. How many times have us mothers took a nap with our kids? It happens. This time this mom woke up and her child was gone. Again, I do not know what exactly happened, the news is not really saying much and I am trying to stay away from it because of the outcome of this. From what I hear this little boy, Emmett wandered out of his home in a diaper, PJ top and bare feet. (the same thing my child wears when we are having lazy days at home) The found his foot prints and he wandered for 3-4 miles looking for his house. They found him face down in the mud, the angels took him. I cried, I still cry thinking about it. I can not get this picture of him out of my head. I can not get the thoughts of what this mother must be going through out of my head. I seriously have cried about this so much. I hide it because I think people would think I am crazy...but this story has literally broke me. I look at my son and I am just so thankful that I have him. I give him extra kisses and hugs and I just want to hold him forever. I just want to say, I did not know Emmett Trapp, I didn't know his family and I never heard the name before it was on the news....but Emmett, you have taught parents to take that extra step in watching their children....you may be with the angels now, but you have touched a spot in my heart and I will always keep that extra eye on my child because of your story.