I need to have some help on something. I need words of stay at home moms to help me out. Please, because right now I feel like a horrible selfish person, and I don't know if I really should feel this way.
My husband and I were sitting here talking about money. I told him please do not spend anything until his next payday just to keep us with a cushion in our account. He mentioned to me that I should stop going out for my evening drive at night because that will save gas.
I am not sure if any other momma does this, but when my husband gets home and things are slow at the house I sneak out and go for a drive. It is just to our local Walgreens and back. I do not even get out of the car. I just blast my music and drive. It maybe takes me 20 minutes in total but that is MY TIME! It is the only time I look forward to all day to clear my head of the "mommy this" and "mommy that" which I hear all day. I sometimes want to scream because I am stuck at home 5 days a week. People wouldn't understand, they think being a stay at home mom is lovely. Sitting at home all day, but it is really the hardest thing in the world to me.
Anyway, back to my question. I was sitting here talking to my husband as he was telling me that I should stop taking my evening drive because it does waste gas. I told him that I sacrifice that extra gas which probably adds up for a few extra dollars a week for the "me" time. He told me that that "it's weird you tell me not to spend money but then you do that everyday." Seriously? I told him that is not what I mean. Am I wrong for this? Is this selfish of me? He gets going to work and coming home everyday to clear his head. I ask for 20 minutes a day to do this and I get looked at like I am out spending money when he isn't. I do not even look at my 20 minute drive as spending money. Yes, it uses gas, I am aware of that. If we were really tight with gas money I obviously wouldn't go.
What would you say if your husband said this to you? Would you get mad and feel bad? I have to go out later to get garbage bags that I forgot to pick up at the store yesterday. I now feel guilty doing this. I just want to crawl up in bed. I am so annoyed and upset right now.
Ladies...I need advice!